Honesty is a virtue I appear to own…




Plymouth

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Firstly; apologies. I’m not sure why but I just haven’t felt myself this week which is why I haven’t been as organised as I usually am when it comes to posting. Which probably explains why I can’t really be bothered to explain what I did at the weekend either but the pic to the right should help. This is another part of the county I live in bout an hour’s drive away – beautiful isn’t it? We had a weekend full of sunshine so mum and I made the most of it. We went to a marine aquarium too and saw lots of things like sharks and rays etc – check out my Flickr photo album if you have time.

And now a huge thank you – I have just received my first award from Lorna’s bubbles Ahhh – so happy! Thank you, thank you, thank you. It is very much appreciated and has been a little boost in a week of some self-doubt.

7 honest things about myself:<

I am very judgemental. I don’t even have to meet the person; just see them walking down the street and I’ll pass judgement however, I never show it. If a person wants to prove my judgement wrong they are very welcome to surprise me but my judgements are my opinion; I just know when to keep my mouth shut.

I need to know the ending. Whether it be a book, TV soap or movie, I have to know what the ending is going to be before I start it. I have no idea where there has come from but it drives the people I know up the wall. It’s just one of my idiosyncrasies, I can’t help it.

I am compassionate to a fault. I’ve been through a lot in my life and I guess that drives me to help people. Even when I have my plate full, am going through things myself or am just busy, I will always find time to help others. Whether it be a drunk person that needs to get home, a child that just needs some company or a friend that simply needs to cry; I am ALWAYS here.

I’m curious. Ok, I’m nosey, shut up. I love reading TMZ simply for the scandal and the fact that I get to poke around into peoples lives. However, I can justify it by scientific results showing that the more intelligent a woman is the more gossip they require; I am therefore a pure genius!

I get really lonely. I guess through a combination of picking shitty friends, having a family that isn’t terribly close at times (though they would beg to differ on that fact) and no man to share the special times in life, sometimes the loneliness can just creep up on me and hit me harder than the realisation that there’s no chocolate in the house.

I don’t love my dad. I will go as far to say that I care about him but that’s about as far as I can go which is a sorry statement to have to write. After years of emotional abuse, a fear of him becoming violent and the necessity of me being the parent in our relationship means that if he wasn’t my father, I wouldn’t have anything to do with him. At times I have made my mum cry when I’ve shouted that I wished she’d never met him and had me – I can be cruel when I’m hurting.

I’m never 100% honest with you. I guess you could argue that many people in the blogosphere aren’t but my omission of certain truths is not malicious, simply necessary right now. Things will become clearer before I go away next year but for now, for a number of reasons, no matter how much I want to, I just can’t be completely honest; forgive me.

I’ll be fine in a couple of days, I’m just pretty tired right now,
Aloha!

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3 comments

  1. That was a great honest list. I can relate to quite a few of them. Actually, a couple of them could have been about me! Especially the generosity one.

  2. Kayla

    I love the honesty in not being honest with us…. That is your right and when you are ready, we will be here to listen and help you as much as we can!

  3. I love to know the ending too!! No spoiler alert needed for me. I want to know how it ends before I watch it. I also love to know my Christmas gifts before I open them.