Sooooooooo it’s Wednesday now. Did I see Mr Officer on Monday night you ask? Sure did. I spent the night too. I knew he wouldn’t have the kids so I text him Monday morning asking if I could stay the night if I wanted to. I took some essentials with me…toothbrush etc ‘just in case’ but who was I kidding? I knew as soon as I saw him that I’d want to spend the night even if I wasn’t planning anything…I wanted to make the most of our time together.
Anyway…we had a lovely night watching movies, catching up with what’s been happening in our lives and just relaxing together doing the ‘luvvy dovey’ thing and holding each other’s hands etc (complimentary sick bucket is not provided so if you’re going to hurl do it elsewhere).
And when we went to bed he was on his best behaviour…he was fully clothed and so was I but since I’ve already said that whenever we see each other we can’t keep our hands to ourselves, do you really expect me to say we went straight to sleep? No, of course not! I won’t go into details (I am a lady you know) but needless to say I spent an hour and a half enjoying myself and I didn’t ‘over-think’ it all, it just felt right. It was pretty fun though 😉
The sad thing is that I’m not really ‘giddy’ about it all anymore. I think because it’s been so difficult to see him and with him letting me down a couple of times, I don’t want to allow myself to get excited about it all again in case he disappoints me. The good news is that he text me yesterday afternoon so I’m pretty sure he won’t be leaving now that we’ve slept together which is a huge weight off my mind. We’ve arranged to see each other again on Saturday but we’ll wait and see if it happens.
So I think from now on, I’m just not going to think about it. I’ll take each day as it comes and that way I can’t get disappointed right? Realistically I’m not looking for anyone else before I go travelling so I’ll stay with Mr Officer and see what happens; who knows.
Last night was spent meeting up with my Couch Surfers though I have to say I wasn’t really in the mood for sparkling conversation; it was cold and I was shattered ( yeah, I know, the tiredness was my own fault lol) but I got on the train and off I went. The night started pretty slowly with some awkward silences but as more and more people came the livelier it became and we were soon up to 16 sitting in a pub chatting about Christmas traditions depending which country we were from (apparently people in the Czech Republic eat fish and potato salad on Christmas Day). I was cold and tired by the time I caught the train home but it was made all the better when I got back and mum had put a hot water bottle in my bed ready and waiting for me – how sweet is that?!
You know, it’s funny, I told Mr Officer that I had a clear social diary this week and yet aside from tonight, I’m doing something every day this week. Also, my boss has told me where we’re going for dinner this Sunday too and it’s a very upmarket Michelin-star restaurant – how special do I feel?!
I think this week is going to be good.
p.s. It’s Wednesday lunchtime and Mr Officer has text me again…he’s definitely helping my fears and doubts to disappear! 🙂